day 222
New Year's Eve is that time in which folks like to reflect on the current year and make unattainable goals for the coming year. It's a silly ritual, but one that some folks do every single year. Guess what, so do I. Well, do reflect but I don't make any resolutions because it's just unnecessary.
So Ginger Boy asked me the another night as we were drifting off to sleep to think about all the good things from 2010. At first I could not think of one single good thing about 2010. I could only think of all the bad things that happened and then like a big baby, I felt sorry for myself. Then as I closed my eyes and almost cried myself to sleep, I remembered an episode of This American Life that Ginger Boy and I watched about this man who basically had to depend on other people to take care of him because he was severely disabled. Despite his disability, he made the best of his situation and he actually had a decent life complete with friends and family and a girlfriend who really loved and respected him. So if this dude could find happiness and not complain so could I. My life is actually not so tragic and it's actually been a pretty good year.
I am still sad that Jin and Sun died on L O S T and I am even more sad that the show is over. However, I revisit it whenever I want to through the magic of DVD and Blue ray.
So that is a pretty good thing. One of my dearest friends was married this past spring to THE perfect guy for her. I mean they are just adorable together and so much fun to be around. I love them both very much and I really enjoyed their kick ass cool wedding! That whole experience was a pretty good thing. I lost a little weight which is always a good thing. Ginger Boy got his shit together and THAT is a very good thing.
I saw Ani DiFranco in concert with my ISM and that was another good thing.
Oh and one of my friends who I always just considered a pal actually became a close friend, one I can trust with some of my darkest secrets (believe me, there are many). That was not only a good thing but a wonderful thing. Ginger Boy took me on a weekend getaway to a really creepy hotel but we ate cheese and drank Snapple and watched some dumb Vince Vaughn movie on cable and it was actually a very good thing. I made a volcano this summer and it was better than Peter Brady's, wow that was good thing too. Toy Story 3, Netflix, learning how to get rid of Stink Bugs, Ginger Boy decorating the Funky Anne Frank Room for my Birthday all were pretty good things. Going to Ollie's Army night which I had not done in 2 years was VERY good and Ginger Boy taking me to The National Christmas Center as part of my Christmas present was awesomely good. So many good things happened in 2010. Sure there was a pile of shit to deal with every now and then but still, it was a pretty good year.
2011 will be much better because I am going to make sure I have more pretty good moments for another pretty good year.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
31.12.10
25.12.10
anyone hear what i hear?
day 216
If anyone could bring us peace on earth, it would be Snoopy.
Happy Christmas!
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
24.12.10
everybody is a critic including me
day 215
Christmas Eve is finally here and this is one day in which I am thankful that I don't have a close knit family because then I would have to participate in their ridiculous rituals. The drinking has begun and the stench of dead shrimp hangs heavy in the air as they're all gathered around the dinning room table talking about what else, football. It smells worse than the ladies room at CBGB's ever smelled. If you've never been to CBGB's then you know not what I speak of but trust me, IT STINKS! After several drinks, Rasputia will retire to her room to do whatever wildebeests like her do on Christmas Eve and she will force Sammy Davis Urkle and her young minions to scrub the house from top to bottom because she is getting a Christmas visitor tomorrow that is allergic to cats.
RIDICULOUS! She never fucking cleans this dump but now because someone is coming over she needs to impress them by not lifting a finger and making everyone else do her dirty work. Give me a break!
So what does a lonely diabetic do on Christmas Eve? Watch movies of course! I have filled my weekends and some week nights during the month of November and December watching many Christmas movies and all the good TV specials I now own on DVD thanks to a lovely lady I once worked with who has since passed away. Now that they've all been watched it is time for movies that aren't necessarily considered "Christmas" movies but they take place during Christmas or have a notable Christmas scene in them so to me, they are Christmas movies. Going My Way, The Bells of St. Mary's, Meet John Doe and It's A Wonderful Life all have Christmas scenes in them so of course they qualify as "Christmas" movies. Classic and FANTASTIC Christmas movies that many folks think of this time of year so I will not bother to give you my review of those films, they all earn 5 PLUS stars in my book.
Here are my picks for films that make me merry around the holiday season in no particular order:
While You Were Sleeping (1995)
A darling little gem of a film starring Sandra Bullock and Bill Pullman that takes place during the Christmas season. Sandra Bullock's character Lucy has a crush on Peter Gallagher's character of the same first name who to me is basically just that, a real peter or dick if you want to be so bold. His uni brow creeps me out and you get the vibe that he is a real ass but for some reason she finds him attractive. He ends up getting knocked onto some train tracks and Lucy saves him. Peter is in a coma and his family thinks Lucy and he are engaged and they immediately welcome her into their family. It's what Lucy needs because she has no family and well, I won't give much away but it has some touching moments and funny moments too. What makes it a comedy worth seeing are all of the supporting characters. Peter Boyle, Micole Mercurio, Jack Warden, Michael Rispoli and the wonderful Glynis Johns. These characters make the film hilarious! "New Year's Eve hasn't been the same since Guy Lombardo died." and Christmas isn't Christmas without viewing this film. I give it 4 out of 5 stars.
Trading Places (1983)
What the hell do stockbrokers, a ne'er do well and a hooker have to do with Christmas? A LOT! The film takes place in Philadelphia during the Christmas season and the comic duo of Eddie Murphy and Dan Akroyd are worth gold! Richard Pryor and Gene Wilder were originally scheduled to play the roles of Billy Ray Valentine and Louis Winthorpe III but it did not happen and personally I just can't see it. Pryor may have been able to pull it off but Gene Wilder is too gentle to play a regular old Mr. Snooty Pants like Louis. The supporting cast of Ralph Bellamy, Don Ameche and Denholm Elliot are OUTSTANDING and Jamie Lee Curtis does a nice job as well. If you have not seen this film I suggest you check it out real soon. I give this film 4 out of 5 stars.
Moonstruck (1987)
A'more is in the air during the festive month of December in New York City and Cher as Loretta Castorini is simply delightful in this Academy Award Winning role. Loretta is a widowed bookkeeper who is engaged to "a big baby" of a man named Johnny Cammareri who is about to fly to Sicily to be with his dying mother. Johnny wants to repair the "bad blood" between him and his brother Ronnie played so brilliantly by Nicholas Cage.
Johnny asks Loretta to call Ronnie and invite him to their wedding. Once Loretta meets Ronnie the film gets even funnier. Again, it is the supporting characters that make this film genius for me. It is one of those movies you need to see more than once to get some of the subtle humor that you may have missed the first time time around. If you watch the film with me for your second viewing, I will gladly point out those moments as well as rattle off hilarious quotes as they happen. Oh this film is FULL of memorable lines. This is a 5 star film for me and one I watch several times each year.
Die Hard (1988)
Bruce Willis as Officer John McClane, need I say more! It is perhaps the best "Christmas" movie EVER!
4 1/2 out of 5 stars.
Evelyn(2002)
This is a blink and you'll miss it film that only played in 15 theaters in the USA in 2002. The film opens in 1953 on Christmas Day in Ireland when Desmond Doyle, played by Pierce Brosnan is arguing with is wife over her shenanigans with another man. Desmond's wife leaves him the following day to be with this man and she also leaves behind her 3 children. The oldest one is her daughter Evelyn played with such heart and soul by Sophie Vavasseur. Because Desmond is currently unemployed and there is no mother to take care of the children, they are shipped off to two different Catholic orphanages by the authorities. The film really has nothing to do with Christmas but it is a heart warming tale of a man's struggle to bring his children home. Scenic Ireland and the background music add a richness to this film that gives off the vibe of some of those older "Christmas" classics I mentioned before. If you love the Irish and their funny ways, you will enjoy this movie as much as I do. I saw this movie on Showtime in 2003 and wore out my VHS recorded copy of it. So I recently rented it from Netflix and I am hoping Santa brings me the DVD for Christmas because I enjoy this funny and sappy film that is actually based on a true story. I give it 4 1/2 out of 5 stars.
Millions (2004)
Seven year old Damian's mother has just passed away and he seems to cope by using his vivid imagination. Damian sees and talks to saints. The audience gets to peer into Damian's world and it is magical. Damian along with his father and older brother move into a new housing development and while emerged in one of his fantasies, Damian finds a large gym bag full of millions of dollars. It is a touching tale with some humor and it's just so pleasing to the eye to watch. Danny Boyle is one of my favorite directors because he has a unique way of telling a story and Millions is perhaps my favorite Danny Boyle film after Shallow Grave. The movie earns 5 PLUS stars in my book!
Oh and it does take place at Christmas time and there are Mormons in it so now you MUST check this movie out! In the immortal words of Damian, there is but one word to describe this film, "BRILLIANT!"
That's it folks. Those are the "Christmas" films I enjoy this time of year. I am sure I missed a few but these are the ones I must watch to make my Christmas feel like Christmas.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
Christmas Eve is finally here and this is one day in which I am thankful that I don't have a close knit family because then I would have to participate in their ridiculous rituals. The drinking has begun and the stench of dead shrimp hangs heavy in the air as they're all gathered around the dinning room table talking about what else, football. It smells worse than the ladies room at CBGB's ever smelled. If you've never been to CBGB's then you know not what I speak of but trust me, IT STINKS! After several drinks, Rasputia will retire to her room to do whatever wildebeests like her do on Christmas Eve and she will force Sammy Davis Urkle and her young minions to scrub the house from top to bottom because she is getting a Christmas visitor tomorrow that is allergic to cats.
So what does a lonely diabetic do on Christmas Eve? Watch movies of course! I have filled my weekends and some week nights during the month of November and December watching many Christmas movies and all the good TV specials I now own on DVD thanks to a lovely lady I once worked with who has since passed away. Now that they've all been watched it is time for movies that aren't necessarily considered "Christmas" movies but they take place during Christmas or have a notable Christmas scene in them so to me, they are Christmas movies. Going My Way, The Bells of St. Mary's, Meet John Doe and It's A Wonderful Life all have Christmas scenes in them so of course they qualify as "Christmas" movies. Classic and FANTASTIC Christmas movies that many folks think of this time of year so I will not bother to give you my review of those films, they all earn 5 PLUS stars in my book.
Here are my picks for films that make me merry around the holiday season in no particular order:
While You Were Sleeping (1995)
A darling little gem of a film starring Sandra Bullock and Bill Pullman that takes place during the Christmas season. Sandra Bullock's character Lucy has a crush on Peter Gallagher's character of the same first name who to me is basically just that, a real peter or dick if you want to be so bold. His uni brow creeps me out and you get the vibe that he is a real ass but for some reason she finds him attractive. He ends up getting knocked onto some train tracks and Lucy saves him. Peter is in a coma and his family thinks Lucy and he are engaged and they immediately welcome her into their family. It's what Lucy needs because she has no family and well, I won't give much away but it has some touching moments and funny moments too. What makes it a comedy worth seeing are all of the supporting characters. Peter Boyle, Micole Mercurio, Jack Warden, Michael Rispoli and the wonderful Glynis Johns. These characters make the film hilarious! "New Year's Eve hasn't been the same since Guy Lombardo died." and Christmas isn't Christmas without viewing this film. I give it 4 out of 5 stars.
Trading Places (1983)
What the hell do stockbrokers, a ne'er do well and a hooker have to do with Christmas? A LOT! The film takes place in Philadelphia during the Christmas season and the comic duo of Eddie Murphy and Dan Akroyd are worth gold! Richard Pryor and Gene Wilder were originally scheduled to play the roles of Billy Ray Valentine and Louis Winthorpe III but it did not happen and personally I just can't see it. Pryor may have been able to pull it off but Gene Wilder is too gentle to play a regular old Mr. Snooty Pants like Louis. The supporting cast of Ralph Bellamy, Don Ameche and Denholm Elliot are OUTSTANDING and Jamie Lee Curtis does a nice job as well. If you have not seen this film I suggest you check it out real soon. I give this film 4 out of 5 stars.
Moonstruck (1987)
A'more is in the air during the festive month of December in New York City and Cher as Loretta Castorini is simply delightful in this Academy Award Winning role. Loretta is a widowed bookkeeper who is engaged to "a big baby" of a man named Johnny Cammareri who is about to fly to Sicily to be with his dying mother. Johnny wants to repair the "bad blood" between him and his brother Ronnie played so brilliantly by Nicholas Cage.
Johnny asks Loretta to call Ronnie and invite him to their wedding. Once Loretta meets Ronnie the film gets even funnier. Again, it is the supporting characters that make this film genius for me. It is one of those movies you need to see more than once to get some of the subtle humor that you may have missed the first time time around. If you watch the film with me for your second viewing, I will gladly point out those moments as well as rattle off hilarious quotes as they happen. Oh this film is FULL of memorable lines. This is a 5 star film for me and one I watch several times each year.
Die Hard (1988)
Bruce Willis as Officer John McClane, need I say more! It is perhaps the best "Christmas" movie EVER!
4 1/2 out of 5 stars.
Evelyn(2002)
This is a blink and you'll miss it film that only played in 15 theaters in the USA in 2002. The film opens in 1953 on Christmas Day in Ireland when Desmond Doyle, played by Pierce Brosnan is arguing with is wife over her shenanigans with another man. Desmond's wife leaves him the following day to be with this man and she also leaves behind her 3 children. The oldest one is her daughter Evelyn played with such heart and soul by Sophie Vavasseur. Because Desmond is currently unemployed and there is no mother to take care of the children, they are shipped off to two different Catholic orphanages by the authorities. The film really has nothing to do with Christmas but it is a heart warming tale of a man's struggle to bring his children home. Scenic Ireland and the background music add a richness to this film that gives off the vibe of some of those older "Christmas" classics I mentioned before. If you love the Irish and their funny ways, you will enjoy this movie as much as I do. I saw this movie on Showtime in 2003 and wore out my VHS recorded copy of it. So I recently rented it from Netflix and I am hoping Santa brings me the DVD for Christmas because I enjoy this funny and sappy film that is actually based on a true story. I give it 4 1/2 out of 5 stars.
Millions (2004)
Seven year old Damian's mother has just passed away and he seems to cope by using his vivid imagination. Damian sees and talks to saints. The audience gets to peer into Damian's world and it is magical. Damian along with his father and older brother move into a new housing development and while emerged in one of his fantasies, Damian finds a large gym bag full of millions of dollars. It is a touching tale with some humor and it's just so pleasing to the eye to watch. Danny Boyle is one of my favorite directors because he has a unique way of telling a story and Millions is perhaps my favorite Danny Boyle film after Shallow Grave. The movie earns 5 PLUS stars in my book!
Oh and it does take place at Christmas time and there are Mormons in it so now you MUST check this movie out! In the immortal words of Damian, there is but one word to describe this film, "BRILLIANT!"
That's it folks. Those are the "Christmas" films I enjoy this time of year. I am sure I missed a few but these are the ones I must watch to make my Christmas feel like Christmas.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
23.12.10
Perhaps it will be a Merry Christmas
day 214
The Christmas Tree Saga of 2010 came to end last Saturday night. I said "Fuck it!" as I so often do and decided to give an old lady a Merry Christmas after all. Gee whiz, it makes me sound like I am a good person or something. I was going to put her Christmas tree up with all of her fancy Irish Christmas decorations and festoon her house with all the Christmas items she so dearly loves to display each year but with that new puppy and the two kittens roaming about this dump I could foresee disaster. Instead I went out and bought her a smaller tree and some non-breakable ornaments. Then I dug through her collection of Christmas ornaments to find a few others to add to the tree that would not break if one of those critters decided to smash into the tree during a playful romp. I placed the tree on a shelf between two stereo speakers for extra protection from the friendly beasts. Even thought it is breakable, I also put out her Nativity scene because she recently told me she was very religious. She also loves Lawrence Welk but that has nothing to do with anything really. I even put a few other decorations up to make the place look a bit more cheerful.
The finished result made the old lady very, very happy. Sure it's not her tree but it was an act of kindness that touched her deeply. It also produced a Christmas miracle of sorts because Rasputia decided to move the two noisiest and messiest birds into her bedroom. WHOOP DEE DO AND HALLELUJAH! I have been able to wake up when I wanted to wake up for the past 4 days instead!! Perhaps it will be a Merry Christmas after all. Hey, a girl can dream.
The moral of this story, if you really need one, is that you should fight the good fight and don't deny anyone of their own personal happiness. One great rock show can change the world, or just do nice shit for your mother because she may die tomorrow. You just never know. How guilty would you feel if that old lady spent her very last Christmas on this planet without a Christmas tree of her own to look at and enjoy. That's a guilt I could not live with plus I love the old lady and I just want her to be happy. It does make me happy when the folks I love are happy. But don't tell anyone because I don't want folks to get the wrong idea about me and think I am a nice person or something.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
The Christmas Tree Saga of 2010 came to end last Saturday night. I said "Fuck it!" as I so often do and decided to give an old lady a Merry Christmas after all. Gee whiz, it makes me sound like I am a good person or something. I was going to put her Christmas tree up with all of her fancy Irish Christmas decorations and festoon her house with all the Christmas items she so dearly loves to display each year but with that new puppy and the two kittens roaming about this dump I could foresee disaster. Instead I went out and bought her a smaller tree and some non-breakable ornaments. Then I dug through her collection of Christmas ornaments to find a few others to add to the tree that would not break if one of those critters decided to smash into the tree during a playful romp. I placed the tree on a shelf between two stereo speakers for extra protection from the friendly beasts. Even thought it is breakable, I also put out her Nativity scene because she recently told me she was very religious. She also loves Lawrence Welk but that has nothing to do with anything really. I even put a few other decorations up to make the place look a bit more cheerful.
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| Some Christmas crap to make the dinning room more festive. |
The finished result made the old lady very, very happy. Sure it's not her tree but it was an act of kindness that touched her deeply. It also produced a Christmas miracle of sorts because Rasputia decided to move the two noisiest and messiest birds into her bedroom. WHOOP DEE DO AND HALLELUJAH! I have been able to wake up when I wanted to wake up for the past 4 days instead!! Perhaps it will be a Merry Christmas after all. Hey, a girl can dream.
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| A very Christmasy hall table. |
The moral of this story, if you really need one, is that you should fight the good fight and don't deny anyone of their own personal happiness. One great rock show can change the world, or just do nice shit for your mother because she may die tomorrow. You just never know. How guilty would you feel if that old lady spent her very last Christmas on this planet without a Christmas tree of her own to look at and enjoy. That's a guilt I could not live with plus I love the old lady and I just want her to be happy. It does make me happy when the folks I love are happy. But don't tell anyone because I don't want folks to get the wrong idea about me and think I am a nice person or something.
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| So take a long look at that Christmas tree, it may be the last one that you see. Decorate your house in green and red cause some day you'll be dead. Merry Christmas, Irish Queen! |
16.12.10
SUPER PROUD!
day 207
My "little sis" is a ROCK STAR! Words cannot describe how proud I am of her!! I am also satisfied that she has finally achieved her life long dream of drinking Tab in Chicago!
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
15.12.10
Melancholy Christmas
day 206
I heard this song today and it reminded me of the first Christmas 23 years ago spent with a dear pal that has since passed. It made me a little sad inside. We loved The Pogues together and we simply adored this song. We loved a lot of pretty things such as this one and this song means so much to me; to both of us. He loved his needles more than anything for a long time and now he is gone. It sucks, but you just have to collect all the memories and wishes and move on. "Happy Christmas you ass. . ." I wish we had more together.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day.
I heard this song today and it reminded me of the first Christmas 23 years ago spent with a dear pal that has since passed. It made me a little sad inside. We loved The Pogues together and we simply adored this song. We loved a lot of pretty things such as this one and this song means so much to me; to both of us. He loved his needles more than anything for a long time and now he is gone. It sucks, but you just have to collect all the memories and wishes and move on. "Happy Christmas you ass. . ." I wish we had more together.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day.
My toys are better than Mr. Bean's
DAY 206
I am missing my Nativity scene and all the fun I used to have with it.
Mr. Bean has NOTHING on my Nativity scene action, I have better toys.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
11.12.10
tying up loose ends
day 202
Day 202 is a bitter pill to swallow. How did we get this far into this mess? What's done is done and you can't really look back but you sure as shit can move forward. This was my weekend for tying up some loose ends and moving forward with my life. As usual it won't be that easy, there are always stupid little road blocks that keep popping up and you have to try to maneuver your way around them very carefully so as not to upset anything. I fucking hate that! Then in the background of all of this is Christmas. I actually don't give a fig about the holiday season this year. I still dig all the music, films and TV specials and I even put up a little tree to help me sleep at night (don't ask, it just works for me) but the whole Ritual of Christmas for me has been dipped in shit this year so who really cares. I won't spoil anyone else's Christmas fun because that's just plain mean but I also won't make an effort to participate in any of their activities because it just makes it worse for me. Plus I am kind of sick of wearing a happy face just so others can enjoy themselves. I do it all day long at work and that's just about enough for my tired worthless soul.
What is really pissing me off right about now is a form of elderly abuse that is occurring in this dump. The Others (hostiles, morlocks or The Heelots as I am calling them these days) won't allow the woman I call my mother to put up her Christmas tree! Seriously, are we going to go to THAT level of meanness now?!! I know it sounds silly to worry about such a trivial thing but I do because I still have half a heart left in me even if it is starting to turn black. When I learned of this current law in the household I could have flipped my lid but I just made a few snide Hitler references and returned to my shoebox of a room to contemplate why people commit murder. Denying a 74 year old lady the right to put up her Christmas tree would warrant justifiable homicide in my book. Not that I would kill anyone over it but if I read an article in the paper that said someone killed somebody because they wouldn't let an old lady put up her Christmas tree I would say "Let that person go free as a message to all the Christmas haters out there!! BEWARE!!!"
I could say that the old woman brought all this on her self by allowing a rather unsavory person to dwell in her humble abode but I also know the back story on the old woman and her situation so I am going to give her the benefit of the doubt. Not just because it is Christmas but because she has racked up many winning points in her lifetime and she is after all a pretty decent human being.
GRRRRR I am so fucking angry about this I could kick somebody. I think I will just rattle a bird cage or two and teach them to say "BAH HUMBUG!" or "ALCOHOL IS FOR THE WEAK AND FOOTBALL AND WRESTLING IS FOR THE FEEBLE MINDED OF THE WORLD!"
That would really get those Heelots thinking! If I sit on this anger any longer, I will explode!!
How can you deny a Christmas tree to anyone! If they want it, let them have it. It causes no harm to anyone. If you don't like the way it looks then turn your head or just gauge your eyes out. Hell, you are already blind to the world around you anyhow why not just take it one step further!
Oh yeah, I am MAD AS HELL right about now! Who the hell do they think they are to dictate such a thing. Names like Grinch and Scrooge come to mind but it does not even fit them because the Grinch and Ebenezer Scrooge actually saw the light at the end of the story and they had a major change of heart even if Ebenezer's change of heart was really for selfish reasons. Revisit the book and you might understand what I am saying.
Maybe I am just putting to much effort into being angry over something that really has no affect on me personally but part of me can't let this one pass. I can't let someone be mean to someone else. It's just not right, no it's just not right at all. If this were a movie, the ending would be so beautiful, the whole town would rally around the old lady and bring her a bigger and better Christmas tree than the one she has and they would decorate the place inside and out and everyone would hug and eat cookies afterwards. There might even be some Christmas Carols sung. Oh I like that part the best! Then I think if this were a Quentin Tarantino film there would be some machine gun action and big sabers thrust into the bad guys chests. Heads would literally roll and perhaps an ear or two would be hacked off, and there would be a lot of blood. We'd all remain cool and be little Fonzie's in this adventure. Oh man, I want to see that movie!!
However, life is not like a movie which really sucks so I just need to look at this rationally. Boy this is difficult to do.
Do I fight the good fight and go to bat for the old lady only to be knocked down and hated even more by the others or do I just ignore it and go about my business? It's a tough call. Either way there is going to be turmoil in the household and everyone will suffer at the wrath of Rasputia. She is so mean! That's why she has such bad breath! First of all she is ALWAYS constipated so she is literally full of shit. When you can't get that poop out you have stinky breath. I don't feel one bit sorry for her, she deserves it! Oh she tells folks she is not mean and she tries to act nice but deep down inside she is just pure evil! I can't even stand it!! In fact I should not have even said "they" or mentioned The Others because it is she who does not want the tree, the rest of that bunch don't care one way or another about a tree. So why is she so against it? Why?!!!!
All because she can't afford presents to put under the tree, that's the reason she doesn't want the old lady to put her tree up. Well, WHO CARES!?!?!? Jason Robards charater in The House Without A Christmas Tree had a fairly legitimate reason for not putting up a Christmas tree in his house. But not having presents to put under a tree is no reason to not put one up. Lame, lame, LAME! (If you aren't familar with the film I speak of, then watch this clip below. Skip ahead to 5:09 for the real dramatic part!)
I don't need presents for Christmas in fact no one really needs any presents either. People just want them and I do believe I covered that topic a while back. If there is a need for presents so you can have a Christmas tree then make some fucking presents. Are you that stupid that you can't do that? I believe everyone has some sort of creativity within themselves. Some of us are more gifted than others when it comes to creativity but use what you have to make yourself and others happy. It's really simple. Put up the damn tree and be done with it!!! Good grief!!!!!
I bet someone adjusted her car seat, that's why Rasputia is so against all things that make other people happy.
So here I am again trying to tie up loose ends before it's all over and there is yet another road block making things a bit unbearable. A really stupid road block if you ask me. I really wish I had no heart at all because if I didn't, I wouldn't be here right now.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
Day 202 is a bitter pill to swallow. How did we get this far into this mess? What's done is done and you can't really look back but you sure as shit can move forward. This was my weekend for tying up some loose ends and moving forward with my life. As usual it won't be that easy, there are always stupid little road blocks that keep popping up and you have to try to maneuver your way around them very carefully so as not to upset anything. I fucking hate that! Then in the background of all of this is Christmas. I actually don't give a fig about the holiday season this year. I still dig all the music, films and TV specials and I even put up a little tree to help me sleep at night (don't ask, it just works for me) but the whole Ritual of Christmas for me has been dipped in shit this year so who really cares. I won't spoil anyone else's Christmas fun because that's just plain mean but I also won't make an effort to participate in any of their activities because it just makes it worse for me. Plus I am kind of sick of wearing a happy face just so others can enjoy themselves. I do it all day long at work and that's just about enough for my tired worthless soul.
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| The Funky Anne Frank Room Christmas tree. The Heelots haven't broken me yet! |
I could say that the old woman brought all this on her self by allowing a rather unsavory person to dwell in her humble abode but I also know the back story on the old woman and her situation so I am going to give her the benefit of the doubt. Not just because it is Christmas but because she has racked up many winning points in her lifetime and she is after all a pretty decent human being.
GRRRRR I am so fucking angry about this I could kick somebody. I think I will just rattle a bird cage or two and teach them to say "BAH HUMBUG!" or "ALCOHOL IS FOR THE WEAK AND FOOTBALL AND WRESTLING IS FOR THE FEEBLE MINDED OF THE WORLD!"
That would really get those Heelots thinking! If I sit on this anger any longer, I will explode!!
How can you deny a Christmas tree to anyone! If they want it, let them have it. It causes no harm to anyone. If you don't like the way it looks then turn your head or just gauge your eyes out. Hell, you are already blind to the world around you anyhow why not just take it one step further!
Oh yeah, I am MAD AS HELL right about now! Who the hell do they think they are to dictate such a thing. Names like Grinch and Scrooge come to mind but it does not even fit them because the Grinch and Ebenezer Scrooge actually saw the light at the end of the story and they had a major change of heart even if Ebenezer's change of heart was really for selfish reasons. Revisit the book and you might understand what I am saying.
Maybe I am just putting to much effort into being angry over something that really has no affect on me personally but part of me can't let this one pass. I can't let someone be mean to someone else. It's just not right, no it's just not right at all. If this were a movie, the ending would be so beautiful, the whole town would rally around the old lady and bring her a bigger and better Christmas tree than the one she has and they would decorate the place inside and out and everyone would hug and eat cookies afterwards. There might even be some Christmas Carols sung. Oh I like that part the best! Then I think if this were a Quentin Tarantino film there would be some machine gun action and big sabers thrust into the bad guys chests. Heads would literally roll and perhaps an ear or two would be hacked off, and there would be a lot of blood. We'd all remain cool and be little Fonzie's in this adventure. Oh man, I want to see that movie!!
However, life is not like a movie which really sucks so I just need to look at this rationally. Boy this is difficult to do.
Do I fight the good fight and go to bat for the old lady only to be knocked down and hated even more by the others or do I just ignore it and go about my business? It's a tough call. Either way there is going to be turmoil in the household and everyone will suffer at the wrath of Rasputia. She is so mean! That's why she has such bad breath! First of all she is ALWAYS constipated so she is literally full of shit. When you can't get that poop out you have stinky breath. I don't feel one bit sorry for her, she deserves it! Oh she tells folks she is not mean and she tries to act nice but deep down inside she is just pure evil! I can't even stand it!! In fact I should not have even said "they" or mentioned The Others because it is she who does not want the tree, the rest of that bunch don't care one way or another about a tree. So why is she so against it? Why?!!!!
All because she can't afford presents to put under the tree, that's the reason she doesn't want the old lady to put her tree up. Well, WHO CARES!?!?!? Jason Robards charater in The House Without A Christmas Tree had a fairly legitimate reason for not putting up a Christmas tree in his house. But not having presents to put under a tree is no reason to not put one up. Lame, lame, LAME! (If you aren't familar with the film I speak of, then watch this clip below. Skip ahead to 5:09 for the real dramatic part!)
I don't need presents for Christmas in fact no one really needs any presents either. People just want them and I do believe I covered that topic a while back. If there is a need for presents so you can have a Christmas tree then make some fucking presents. Are you that stupid that you can't do that? I believe everyone has some sort of creativity within themselves. Some of us are more gifted than others when it comes to creativity but use what you have to make yourself and others happy. It's really simple. Put up the damn tree and be done with it!!! Good grief!!!!!
I bet someone adjusted her car seat, that's why Rasputia is so against all things that make other people happy.
So here I am again trying to tie up loose ends before it's all over and there is yet another road block making things a bit unbearable. A really stupid road block if you ask me. I really wish I had no heart at all because if I didn't, I wouldn't be here right now.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
7.12.10
birthday greetings from across the pond
day 198
BRILLIANT!
MAGNIFICENT!
HAUNTING!
FANTASTIC!
MOVING! (and my all time favorite!)
Happy Birthday Mate and thank you. It's moments like this that make me want to stay on this planet a little while longer.
off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
1.12.10
Don't Worry, I'll Be Alright.
day 193
With good friends and a good song all things seem brighter.
I don't know who said that, maybe it was even me in younger days but it sounds good.
Off to enjoy another sunny, SUNNY day!
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